it happened again. it was by the same one who came the night before dhs cny celebration . it was a sort of revenge, i guess. since i sort of 'betrayed' her. ugh. i still dun understand. who is she? what does she want from me? and why specifically me? kyaaaahhh. i seriously dun get it. just when i think everything is fine, she comes back. maybe it was partially my fault for telling. but i wouldn't have if she didn't come in the first place. nothing works. the pi xiu in my pillow, the painting and sword in the living room, our arowana. no effect. and if i attempt to get help, she will stops me. she blocks my throat. stops me from moving. it's lucky how god helped me to pull through this. i can't rmb how i got by. my mind went blank right after screaming my last line. but still, thank you, lord.

and i'm so glad that god, sophia, my family and friends will be there for me if such a thing ever happens. hopefully it doesn't happen again. but i'm not so afraid anymore. satan is just trying to pull me away from god by using fear to control me. i have faith in my lord. he will protect me because he loves me. I WILL LIVE IN PEACE. I SHALL CHASE THE SATAN AWAY FROM ME FOREVER.