so i see that the day of this year i dreaded the most finally arrived ytd. the end of school year 2011.D':

i rmb that on 1 jan 2011 12 am i alr was fearing and dreading the arrival of this day.. yet time crawled and flew at the same time till ytd finally arrived.D: there are just so many things that i can't bear to leave behind.. and right now, it's even more than i first thought it to be..

post-exam activities were fun and kept me busy plus too tired to post so ps...:X but i guess today i finally have the time and really need to write it out somewhere so that i feel better maybe, considering how i once learnt that bottling everything up is not good..xD

mmm so yup.. really enjoyed myself with my dearest ferillans, team and other people during these 2 years and i really thank God for everyone..^^ but then again it's because i love everyone so much that it hurts this greatly to part uh..:( i'm really gonna miss the feeling of being with ferillan and gl-ing the teacher and slacking in class tgtr while sitting next to my window etc.. and then again i'm also gonna miss the times when there was all 9 of us in the team to go siao tgtr, wherever we are, whoever's there, whatever the situation.. definitely i'm also gonna miss the times spent with other dearest ones.. and i just can't sum up how much i can't bear to let these become a fragment of my past, and watch people leave while i'm left behind to cling onto ghosts and shadows of my memories... i know that physical separation can't break our bonds and friendships apart, but esp when it's gonna be such a long term thing, it just feels different i guess.:/

k suddenly feel like writing in chinese LOLOLOL.

现在，就算白昼哭成黑夜，就算泪水都哭干了，就算每晚哭得太累而睡着了，也永远觉得哭得不够。如果我先放弃这一切，我看我的痛也不会变得不药而愈。

k wait all of a sudden i realise that i sound so emo.o.O BUT NO LAH. i just feel super duper... sad. k sorry my vocab's limited.xD thinking back, this is the first time i feel soooooooooooooooo reluctant leaving my class etc. not that i wasn't reluctant or that i was not as reluctant to leave pcps and 6A, but somehow i guess it's cause there's alot more i have to let go of this time.:/

but i still know that God will bring me through all this.. and that i can count on Him no matter how hard it's gonna get.:3 i guess i just still need alot more time ba...

thanks for everything, everyone.^w^ 我会好好地安慰我自己，宁愿相信你只是突然改变了主意，去了另一个美丽城市，只忘带我入境。xD [now who's the one with stm?:P]

stay strong princess warrior! it's gonna be alright!:3