cny has been pretty fine so far... but going back to pcps on wed was still the best.^w^ we really went crazy seeing each other again after such a long time~! but the boys really changed alot... marcus neo's famous tummy is gone.:O and yuheng grew taller than me. why people why. why do all the guys get to grow so tall.T^T blehh, but i think they're still as immature as last time... LOL.xD

anyways, me, muffs, sheryl, michelle, yingxuan and meixian went j8 and had lots of fun just slacking around there. thanks girls, for the wonderful time there! it was really great being with you all once more. love you all!^^ and we met *ahem* there. hmmm, hope you two had a nice date while it lasted... i think you did, right? if not why your status so happy!:P

and then as for ytd and today... nothing much, really. it's not like we have alot of relatives to visit... our family went to visit grandma with grandpa, aunt, uncle, the other aunt(you know, like, our uncle's wife.), pinghuay, baoxuan(i still prefer baoxuan over pohsuan. it's a habit since young, maybe...:P). i hope grandma's doing ok... it's not like i can ask her, and it's not like i can see for myself...

for today, we really didn't do anything much except go to sis' coach's house... i totally just sat there and stoned while they were playing blackjack...:P yay stoning!:D


and it was during this period of time that i realised that for a very long time, i've been having a monologue with myself. ok that doesn't make much sense but yeah. i realised that many many things have been pretty much one-sided, and yet, there's nothing much i can do...

before this break, there were two people that told me i've been too nice and too innocent. one said that i'm too innocent as a sec school girl; that i can't be as innocent as i was in back in primary sch. the other said that i'm too nice that people are gonna bully me and push me around. and really, i know that you guys are just concerned for me in your own ways... and i really really really appreciate that. thank you!:) but then again, what can i do? it's just who i am... you told me that i need to have a character... but i'm really just being myself... and then the other you said that i need to get angry once in a while, or even often. but i just can't. it's like, i can't find a way to get angry anymore. in a sense, what you guys told me has helped me to realise... the selfish and impatient me no longer exists, because Christ is in me!:D once again, thanks for your concern! i really really wanna thank you for caring.^^

but as i thought about it more seriously, i realised that they were warning me, in a sense. because of the fact that i'm already in sec school, because of the fact that this world has been corrupted by the ways of the devil, it's dangerous. when people are just going around backstabbing, gossipping, betraying, etc... in their own way, they were trying to tell me that i can't sit around, be nice, and let people toy with me. "you're like, the only person i know who's like that..." was what one of them said. thanks for your care... really.:") YOU GUYS ROCK. I LOVE YOU!^w^

oh God... how much longer? how much longer do i need to see all these things? how much longer, before people can stop crying more than one litre of tears over sin?