somehow, all the smiles that we once used to share so happily just floated away like a balloon, when i wasn't expecting it to, when i had never ever even dreamt that it would ever slip away, and when i thought it wasn't going to fly off with me holding it so tightly.

i'm really always the last one to know about these things, huh... i'm really always the one who innocently believes everything, huh... i'm really always the one who's useless and can't do anything, huh...

forget about being the last to know; why did this even happen in the first place?
forget about me being innocent and too trusting; why are things even faked before my eyes?
forget about me being useless; why did things get so complicated?

please, can we talk this over? can we just return to the way things were? can we stop all these unnecessary feelings before our tears begin to overflow?

all this is like an endless cycle that i'm always stuck in. how much longer, God? how much longer till every single sinful thought, action and word can be finally cleansed?

i really can't do anything right now, can i...

i tried. i really tried. but then... i failed.

now i realise, i really can't do this on my own, no matter what.

God, i'm counting on You to help me, and everyone else stuck in all these things.