yesterday's message from gladys about being real was really great. it spoke to my heart and set me thinking about lots and lots of things. but personally, what i thought about most was letter E- evangelical passion.

God has placed different people in our lives so that we can bring them back to Him, and a lost soul is saved. when i heard that, one name dashed acrossed my mind immediately. but a split second later, another name came flying by. then, after a minute, lots of names came by. and right now, i have no idea who is this person i'm supposed to help.

gladys says it's probably the first person i think of when she mentioned that, but when i think about the first person... he/she feels so far away and really hard to achieve, even though we have so many places in common in which God has placed us in. in a sense, we are very close, but very far away at the same time... so if he/she is really this person... what do i do? furthermore, i don't have much time left if it really were this person...

but for the second person, we're not that far away from each other, and it seems more achievable. but it wasn't the first name that flashed by. so i don't know if this person really needs God in his/her life, and i don't know if he/she is the one i'm supposed to bring to DI. as much it seems pretty achievable, it's a little hard at the same time...

as for the subsequent names... we're close in terms of physical being, but for personal feelings, we're pretty far away nowadays. they literally shut down when i talk about Jesus. and they're avoiding me alot because of that. it's like, they need Christ in their lives, yet they're refusing it. this is hard...

who do i reach out to? i mean, it's good to reach out to more than one- that'll be really great. but considering the different factors... i really don't know what to do.

hopefully God will tell me a definite answer soon, so that i can take action immediately, instead of having me waste time by going round in circles trying to figure out who this person is.