nah, i'm not a defense afforney trying to find contradictions in a witness testimony, and neither am i a prosecutor trying to disprove the contradictions the defense raises.

yet, there's so much of both going on in my heart and my mind.

2011, so far, feels like a year that's passing slowly yet quickly at the same time. it's week 4, this fast. i can't believe it. but if i take a look back at week 1, it feels like such a long time ago. part of me wants 2011 to last forever, yet another part of me wants 2011 to pass by now.

I KNEW IT, I'M CONTRADICTING MYSELF SERIOUSLY.

and there are so many other things i'm contradicting myself in... MY HEART AND MY BRAIN REALLY NEEDS TO GO ON A COURT TRIAL. LIKE, NAOOO.

i'm being so weird that i'm freaking myself out.

but then again, there isn't anything i can do. feelings are feelings. thoughts are thoughts. not like i can delete my memory of all these things and and start anew, feeling so much better. right now, all i can do is... count on God.=)
dear 2679... you have no idea how fast my heart beats because of you, nor do you know how much i want time to freeze so that you can just keep staying by my side...
GOGOGO CHARIS. YOU CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS YOU.:D