well, was emo-ing again ytd morning... ahhh. didn't feel like talking or doing anything at all... but then keane and pengfei were like, super hyper, and then they did all sorts of funny things and it made me laugh... :D thanks guys! i really appreciate it... :) and then after laughing, i became hyper again... and then when mdm low was going through the list of i/c during level camp, she went on until 'the ra-ra show', and i screamed out loud. gahahaha. i love my job as one of them.^^ then went for training. went to the gym seh. :D the equipment there were pretty cool... after some physical workout there, went down for vball training... it was quite ok... but then afterwards, lots of ppl just suddenly left... and then our fantastic game just ended... T^T but it was fun while it lasted...

and then after training... chatted awhile with miss heng, tgtr with florence and nic... but then nic had some private thing to tell miss heng that i couldn't participate in... so i left... and then... on the way back home... though i was in high spirits once more, i just crashed again... was crying throughout my QT later at night... i really didn't know what to do anymore...

but thankfully, i knew God... after simeon and pete came to share with us today [it was soooo awesome! their singing rocks, their music rocks, their sharing rocks, and their humour too... :D], it was cell time... and we were just asked to share something that happened during our week that made us learn something from God... so... it went round the circle, and it came to my turn... i shared abt what happened ytd... and started crying unknowingly... then hongxia hugged me... and jie too... and then wan ting just shouted, "TAU POK!!!" [which means, squash me with a group hug] and then everyone just came and hugged me... and then they gave me tissue too... thx a million zillion, sophia! you guys rock^^ really, i feel tons better now... :D also, thx to all others who have also cheered me up... :D it really means alot to me at this point in time... thx! :D

anyways, you might be thinking, since we were asked to share sth we learnt from our incident in the week, what did i learn from my story? rmb some time ago, i posted about me dreaming that i fell of flights of stairs and blablabla? well, i didn't really learn it, but i just remembered it. and that was all i needed. i rmb how the dream told me that no matter how i stumble and fall, how much i bleed, and how much nobody cares about it, God will definitely help me. and that was when i realised i didn't need to fear anything anymore.

level camp is coming in 3 days, and with that thought in mind, i shall enjoy my camp even more!^^